Mom of two tip Tuesday...

So for some reason I was naive enough to think that when I had my 2nd child he would be just like Haley.  I already rode the merry go round so I would know what I was doing right?  Wrong… Lucas is proving that like I have heard before not every child is the same.  And why would I want him to be the same as Haley?  As I took the time to sit, breath and reflect (quiet time in your own mind that all moms need to TAKE the time to do) I realized that the only reason it is important to me is for me.  Not even realizing it selfishly I want this so that I know better what I am doing and to make it easier and so on and so forth.  As I really thought about my son and what I want for him and what a blessing it is to see him grow and present to us each day a little bit more of who he is I began to see that in wanting him to be just like Haley I am holding him back from being who he is meant to be.  I could see that in some of his personality already shining through he is changing me, helping me.  Its a beautiful thing these little people we are given even more than I even could have imaged.  I feel like I already knew that but now I know it to a whole new level.  Both my children are a new beginning- a reason for more time to slow down and reflection so that I can welcome change and fine tuning in my own life.  So I can be a better me a better mom.  So moms out there who feel like your failing, who feel like you are at odds with your kids each day.  Find hope in knowing that you are not alone and you are doing just fine.  If like our yucky weather today you are in the rain storm. Stop and breath.  Take a moment to let your thoughts come together and to stay focused on the top things.  Choose your battles with your kids and know what to let go of and just move on from.  This is hard for me but I can say that with just doing it with Lucas and Haley I am feeling so much better.   So lets continue to embrace the ever changing waves that come with parenthood.   Good luck and many prayers.. its a beautiful battlefield.  So keep fighting… its so worth it.

Fringe Hours launch team...

Years ago somehow I stumbled upon 2 ladies that were starting a a book club.  I have been apart of the book club for years now, reading along and hearing them share their hearts and what they took out of the book.  I never got too involved, I was more of a behind the scenes follower but that did not mean my growth was any less than those who were really involved.  I think this is true of church as well.  But to stay on topic I will not go into that now.  Maybe later I will let those thoughts free…  Both ladies who lead the book club have since written books of their own and with the new launch of her book The Fringe Hours - Making time for you I am so excited to be a part of Jessica Turners launch team to help kick start the excitement of her new book!  An advanced copy is on its way to me and as I read along with others in the launch team I am super excited to no longer be a behind the scenes follower.  I look forward to reading and sharing with you as well what I am learning and how this book is helping me to hopefully make the most of my time a bit more as a new mom of 2 kids under 2.   The book is written to help busy woman find the time we need to not do more but about being more- more creative, more fulfilled and more alive.  Follow along with me here or on Instagram.  If you are interested in reading you can go to Amazon and pre-order your copy today.  

I can't think of a better way to kick off my writing again.  Here is to the new beginnings for all of us, even the ones we do not see coming our way!  : )  

A new beginning...

Well as you can see I have been gone for quite awhile.  I have missed writing but got caught up in creating my new beginning in life, the thing I had dreamed of and prayed would happen for my husband and I and that is parenthood.  I now have not 1 but 2 beautiful babies that call me Mama ( well only one can talk) and I could not be happier!  I have my daughter Haley Rae who was just our perfect miracle baby.  She is 22 months old now and is so full of life, talking away and showing us day by day a little more of who she really is.  Spending my days with her are so fun.  After we had her I wondered if after being so blessed with her after years of not thinking we would ever have a baby would it be selfish to ask for more?  Well I learned very quickly that it was not and we were surprised when we found out right after my daughter turned 1 that we were again pregnant and this time with a boy!  Our Lucas Ryan was just born on October 9, 2014 and he is so rocking our world.  I have had my bad days with being a mom to now 2 very young children but I remind myself that I am so very blessed and at times I can not even believe that my reality is really my reality.  I truly feel that although I weathered a long and painful storm that I am now feeling the sun shine down and as if my life has just all fallen into place.  I still have learning to do and growing will continue each day and I am now ready to get back at writing and sharing a bit of my story with you once again.  So here's to PARENTHOOD! the good, bad and the ugly..

My family ( My Heart)