Life, death, love and faith to move on...

It is weird how you can feel someone be so close to you who is no longer living. Almost like they are sitting right next to you. That is how I feel right now about my grammy. My grandmother went home to be with the lord on Tuesday after suffering from a stroke in the beginning of the month. Her death is so overwhelming to me for so many reasons. I am so filled with emotions. She will be missed by so many people. She was the most unselfish person I have ever met. Her faith was always so strong and she was such a rock for all her loved her. She has taught me so much. Some of which are only entertaining my mind now that she has passed. God has revealed things to me in such amazing ways through the process of loosing her. I am so sad that she is gone and wish she could still be here but I more than anything am so happy for the life she had lived. I feel so blessed that I had the opportunity to know her and be privileged enough to call her my grandmother. She is in me and even if she is not here anymore each person that knew her has piece of her that will allow her to live on. The family values she has left my family with are solid. She built up a strong foundation that nothing can break down. As I held her hand after she had passed I felt as if she was there even though I knew she was no longer able to feel me touching her. I have peace in knowing that she is happy and in a beautiful place. She has finally arrived in her home where I will some day see her again. Until then I know that I am going to look at the way I live while still here on this earth through a new pair of lenses. Grammy left me with such understanding of love, family, compassion, strength, endurance and faith. I have peace in my heart that I know God has placed there letting me know that no matter what happens no one can take those things away from any of us as long as we hold onto them tight, never give up and keep fighting while staying focused on him until he takes us home to our final destination.

So which way would you go?

Continuing to pray that God will show me the way he wants for me to go. Life can sometimes be unclear.

Remembering his promise to me...

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4 New International Version Bible

Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid.
Even if I am attacked,
I will remain confident.
Psalm 27:3 New Living Translation Bible

The LORD is my light and my salvation
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life
of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1 New International Version Bible

Phil. 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Ps. 91:4-5 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day,

Ps. 91:10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.

Prov. 3:25-26 Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared.

Isa. 54:14 In righteousness you will be established: Tyranny will be far from you; you will have nothing to fear. Terror will be far removed; it will not come near you.

Ps. 56:11 in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?

2Tim. 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Rom. 8:15 For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."

1John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Ps. 91:11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;

Ps. 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Rom. 8:31 What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Rom. 8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

Rom. 8:37-39 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Ps. 31:24 Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

Ps. 27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation-- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-- of whom shall I be afraid?

Ps. 27:3 Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

Hebr. 13:6 So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"

I am down Lord, please pick me up. I do not have the strength to get myself up

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem


To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It`s haunting how I can't seem...

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real
(There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface)
Consuming, confusing what is real
(This lack of self-control I fear is never ending)
Controlling, confusing what is real.

Same Kind of Different as me

Today I found out the next book in The Bloom Book Club! I am really looking forward to reading the next book! The title is "Same Kind of different as me".

Click on the link above to find out more about joining us in our journey of discovering the next book together.

Happy Holidays!

8 Gifts

With the economic times here where everyone is watching their pennies Christmas becomes more of a stress. We live in a spend, bigger, better world. I think we have become a country of people who think that things will make us happy. We have lost touch with people and the little things in life. We miss the precious moments in life that God has for us to see because we are so caught up in the world. Someone sent these to me and I thought I would share them with you. I challenge you this holiday to try to be more creative with your giving. To try to incorporate some of these below into your gift giving. I am going to be taking some time to do this myself and look forward to sharing with you what I came up with. I am not very creative but this holiday I am going to ask God to fill my mind with creative thoughts and ways to give a unique and special gift to those that I love. Happy Holidays..

8 Gifts That Do Not Cost A Penny

1. The Gift of Listening- But you must really listen. No interrupting, no daydreaming, no planning your response. Just Listening.

2. The Gift of Affection- Be generous hugs, kisses, pats on the back and handholds. Let these small actions demonstrate the love you have for family and friends.

3. The Gift of Laughter- Clip cartoons. Share articles and funny stories. Your gift will say, “I love to laugh with you.”

4. The Gift of a Written Note- It can be a simple “Thanks for the help” note or a full sonnet. A brief, handwritten note may be remembered for a lifetime, and may even change a life.

5. The Gift of a Compliment- A simple and sincere, “You look great in red,” “You did a super job” or “That was a wonderful meal” can truly make someone’s day.

6. The Gift of a Favor- Every day, go out of your way to do something kind.

7. The Gift of Solitude- There are times when we want nothing better than to be left alone. Be sensitive to those times and give the gift of solitude to others.

8. The Gift of a Cheerful Disposition- The easiest way to feel good is to extend a kind word to someone, really it’s not that hard to say, help or thank you.