... time for reflection...

As I continue to dig though the muck of a trying time in my life still unaware of where the journey will end up for me I feel the need to stop, reflect and see how God was there for me and to thank him for those moments.  I think we can sometimes take those times for granted especially in a time of pain, unaware at times how to navigate to the "good" part of the plan that God has for you when it looks at face value as so messed up and ugly.  The unknown part of that journey where you are faced with the reality that you may not arrive at where you set out to get to and if you do not remembering God is still good.  As I look back over this journey I can see where I allowed God to walk with me and where I left him and went on alone. I am brought to tears though as during such a painful time I can now look back and see HIM so present where I asked him to be.  You see people say all the time that you are never alone and for me actually wrapping my mind around that when I felt so alone has been such an amazing experience.  It has allowed me with HIM to recently do things that I never thought I could do.  I did them but not alone, not just me, with HIM.  Weird to me to say that about someone you can not see, I almost feel crazy but when you feel it you will know you are not crazy.  I today thank God for all the ways he was always there for me, guiding me, comforting me and healing me and all I needed to do was open up my heart to receive it.  NOT be perfect, not do the right thing all the time but to give my best, the all I have with a pure heart and just open up to a love that is what allows for amazing things to happen.  So I encourage you today to stop and think about a time in your life that was a storm, maybe you are there now, maybe you just came out on the other end, maybe it was a time ago but you are still healing.  Think of it and look at the ways that God was there.. ask yourself how open you were with having him walk with you.  If you have not yet gotten there in your journey it is never too late to dust yourself off and to keep fighting but maybe this time look beside you and embrace always having that person beside you to lean on in the times of fear and to count on to love you no matter what happens because in the present moments good or bad is when you can see God the most clear sometimes.  So keep on in your fight and heres to getting to heaven dirty, beat up and tired!!  You never stop fighting the good fight..  


Until next time....


Anne